{CHANGE} - Part One

Here I am sharing my heart and my deepest, inner most feelings and hope that all who read this will respect my personal views and allow me to express who I am and what my experiences has taught me in light of the my own personal challenges as I travel this journey in life.

Lessons are learned every day, but there are those lessons that will forever change your life. My lesson that I'm about to share is about CHANGE itself. Some changes, like changing our clothes or our bank accounts, have little impact on the world around us. Some changes we have no control of like the weather or seasons, night and day, or the numbers on our clock as time ticks away. Then, there's changes that completely cause a breakthrough in a persons life that literally strips them of everything that they were ever taught or comfortable with and brings them to do the things they never thought they would ever do. Sometimes, it even causes them to do the things they were most afraid of. It's how we react to these changes that determine our destiny or how our future will unfold. It could be a death in the family, a loss of a job, a divorce, a move in an unfamiliar town or city, or even a new life being added to the family. That is the CHANGE that has come into my life many, many, many times...

Yet, there is one change that will never change. My love for Jesus. I remember that day when I cried out to God for a change in my life for the first time. It wasn't at church or at home, but it was in my car. I was just coming out of a very horrible relationship, was wounded by friends whom I felt betrayed me, worked at a job that made me feel unfulfilled, and living out of a room I rented and just feeling so alone and scared of where life was going. It brought me to the realization that I was continually making the same mistakes over and over again. I was running around in circles, searching for my purpose in life and only finding myself empty. I depended so much on myself to answer my own problems. I thought I knew everything. I believed in God, but didn't have that faith in Him until I ran out of faith in myself. So, I wanted a change and finally knew it was time to let go and let God have complete control over my life. The prayer barely came out as I whispered underneath the heaviness of my heart, I said, "God if your real, show me. Change me." That day my life was never the same.... From that point on, every change that came into my life was through the unfailing love of Jesus to change my heart and bless me with strength to overcome the trials of life, to grow in His character and image, and to have the passion to fulfill the purpose set apart for me....